got another call from our adoption stork - no our healing time is NOT up, but we have again been offered an infant. And we said let's do it - I feel very calm about this one.
update - there is a baby boy who needs a home and we have agreed to take him in and love him for as long as we have him. Reunification will of course be offered, but it seems like it will be a tough road for the mother if she is able to do it. Baby boy is 5 days old, 10 pounds and has not left the hospital yet. We may pick him up tommorrow. This time I kind of feel prepared, except for baby clothes for a 10 pound boy!