Sunday, November 21, 2010

Happy ICLW and american Thanksgiving

Short summary -
Married and TTC since 2006 at the ripe old age of 40. All my numbers looked good, SA awesome. One pregnancy on our own - very early miscarriage.
6 IUIs with injectables resulted in 2 pregnancies one lost at 9 weeks, one with no heartbeat at 7 weeks.
All miscarriage blood work is normal. The REs decide donor eggs are the ticket for us.
First donor egg cycle - not many eggs, fresh transfer = BFN (there goes all our money)
Second donor egg cycle (shared the donor with another couple) got 14 (2pn) put away in the freezer. No fresh transfer because lucky me I react poorly to Lupron and it makes my lining thin!
November 2008 - transferred 2 day 5 blasts after thawing and growing 7 of the 2pns. Pregnant at last with a 26 year old egg!
Biting fingernails for week after week - finally starting to relax after asking for US at 13 weeks. 16 week check up baby is dead and shrinking. D&C done March 2009, and so are we.
After much discussion - we decided to move ahead with fost/adopt classes and flush the other 7 2pns. We just can't put another dime into this.
February 2010 - approved home study and officially waiting - again??  Waiting for what now? Well who knows, stay tuned and find out.
Lately I have been trying to remember what I did before thinking about pregnancy and babies all the time. Oh yeah I was obsessed about our wedding! But before 2006 I did have a life I swear. Here and there in my blog you'll see my crafty projects and baked goodies. Hoping to rediscover my lighter side and my artsy side. I need a break from waiting and wanting!


KC said...

I can't remember life before infertility either. I can't imagine not obssesing over cycle days, hormone levels, and cm. I hope you path to adoption-fostering brings your happy ever after.

Mama Bear said...

sounds like its been a rocky road to get where you are! I hope your adoption journey ends with much joy!

Calmly Chaotic said...

I hope that your adoption process goes quickly and that you do rediscover that person that you were pre-wedding planning and pre-infertility as hard as that may be! Happy ICLW!

Logical Libby said...

Before all this you were a normal, sane person, and you will be again when this is all over. And you'll be a long stronger too. Trust me.

Keep your head up.

Anonymous said...

Here from ICLW :) Congratulations on your decision to adopt! Best wishes that your baby comes home to you soon. In the meantime, enjoy your kitties, I know I do.

Di said...

Here for ICLW! Congrats on the adoption journey and best of luck to you!