Monday, November 24, 2008

lucky number 7

So the thaw went well for all 7 embryos. Now we see how they grow. I wonder if is helpful for me to admit I am fearful of pregnancy? I am concerned that I will have complications, unbearable pain, and be miserable for 9 months, AND THEN be disappointed with the stresses of motherhood. Is it horrible that I have more negative images in my mind than happy ones? I've seen some of the worst things that can happen to children first hand. Can I let myself have a normal pregnancy? Could my child grow up to be a healthy and happy adult? Why am I on the other end - don't most people expect everything to go well?
Am I trying to influence the outcome by choosing to thaw 7? What a freak I am.

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